The Myth of Freedom II, Hungry Ghost

"The poverty mentality is traditionally symbolized by the hungry ghost who has a tiny mouth, the size of the eye of a needle, a thin neck and throat, skinny arms and legs and a gigantic belly. His mouth and neck are too small to let enough food pass through them to his immense belly, so he is always hungry. And the struggle to satisfy his hunger is very painful since it is so hard to swallow what he eats." p 36

"Anything that appears in your life you regard as something to consume. If you see a beautiful autumn leaf falling, you regard it as your prey. You take it home or photograph it or paint a picture of it or write in your memoirs how beautiful it was." p 36

"You consume one idea after another, trying to record them, trying to make them solid and real. Whenever you feel hunger, you open your notebook or scrap book or a book of satisfying ideas." p 36

"You try to hold onto your possession, to dwell on it, but after a while you become heavy and dumb, unable to appreciate anything. You wish you could be hungry again so you could fill yourself up again. Whenever you satisfy a desire or suspend yourself in desire and continue to struggle, in either case you are inviting frustration." p 37

My work came out of my experience as a hungry ghost. It was that way in my adolescence and during college. It is that way now when I work towards my professional goals. My pain is hunger and I am also always in fear of the pain of "becoming stuffed, so full that one is insensitive to further stimuli." There's something else I should want besides continuous sensitivity. Something about what I can communicate?